xx_may raw rock kill you

wow. Raw thats fo'show.
But nows Tae is gone *whimper* so whats it going to be like? I'm hoping that it's better than Age Of Reptiles. Do't get me wrong I loved it but No Sir has been my favorite. (No Sir, Life Kisses and Reptiles in that order)
Lee

xx_uncle scruge

wah wah wah. Its chirstmas eve. whoop-de-fucking-do-da. Tomorrow is Chirstmas. I'm going to give things away that I do want so that I don't feel bad about taking stuff I don't want. My head itches. I'm giving books to people. yuppers.
I need a smoke. It's been like, sixish hours. stressful and family filled hours. bleh. I should have taken my moms lighter down here with me. steeling matches from the fam down this way is harder than it is with mom. I want to go to sleep but the want for niccotine is stronger.
Lee

xx_dear god

So I've been watching The L Word when I sneak my compy and not writing. shame on me. But I have news.
Grandma Robin and Gramdpa Steve are here. yay. They are making smal talk and it's fucking rad to be back on lappy. I love you lappy. I hope you know that you make me smile everyday. XD
Tomorrow we ride the train to Eugene. Grandpa Bob is going to pick us up and drive us to Coos Bay. Wonder if he has Wireless. Hope yes. Then we're doing chirstmas with his newest girlriend and her kids.
On the twenty third (Sunday for those of us who don't know//care) he's driving me to Roseburg where Grandma Charlotte is going to pick me up to take me to South O.
now I have been shan hi'ed to take everything of value out of grandma's car.
Lee

xx_thinking of drinking gasoline

My mother is driving me crazy. I'm still having to sneak my own lappy. Suck much? yeah it does.
Other than that it's the same old shit. Having to watch the kids and having to do it her way. WTF? it's not like she's doing so just let me do it my way so we all stay happy.
Still single and the fact that I'm under house arrest. Haven't gotten to back to SMRYC and it doesn't look like i'm going to be able to for a while. That sucks to be sure because I have no friends *pity party* and I think I might get along well with the kids thurrrr.
I'm out of smokes. And thats sucks for sure. Roxy and Jazmo are sending my xMas box today. Woohoo. Rox is being hella rad and sending my cloves. I love that girl. Shes the shit. Shame she's as straight as the equator.
Thats it for a bit. Hopefully something fun will happen and I can get my lappy to say something about it. I'm the most forgetful person ever. I've gots to make cookies.

Lee

xx_gruble grumble

Well from the looks of way things are going with my mom she'll never let me out of her sight again.
It's total shit to have to me snekcing around to get to my stuff. Total bull shit.
She helped me clean my room today. I'm not over the fact that she was being such a bitch about it to be thankful that it's clean.
I was lucky enough to have smoked my last cig last night, so there was nothing to hide that way. And I was the one who cleaned by my bed so getting rid of butts that didn't get outside wasn't to hard.
But I'm grounded from my computer and the library. She said that Aleena wasn't going to come p because her concision was that my room had to be spick and span. It wasn't this morning when she decited to wake me up at six and yelled at me about not stacking the cans and bottles right. Then she shoved me out of y room and was being a total bitch about th whole thing and wouldn't leave.
I'm nervios about what's going to happen to me. It's bull shit.
Help me out please. whoevers reads this. think of a plan and please save me from this personal hell.
Lee

xx_movie news

first off there is a trailer for Prince Caspian


Fantastic yeah? And by the way, Fantastic is one of my new favorite words (giggle is the other one). So we're waiting til May for me to see it, mom says for my birthday. psh, maybe, but I dought it. I need to reread the book to see what exactaly happens. Georgie Henley (Lucy) is looking adorable with longer hair. Anna Popplewell Susan is still not quite right when I look at her. I've always wanted Susan to look more like Amelia. And Lucy more like Kendra. And while they did good with finding to find a Lucy but Susan just bugs me.
William Moseley (Peter) and Skandar Keynes (Edmund) are still looking good. They've never stuck my fancy.
Prince Caspian on the other hand is looking a babe. And his voice is amazing. He does remind me a bit of an underwear model. Maybe he is?


Twilight is going to be made into a movie, as if thats wasn't known. I started reading Eclipce today, its due at the library yesterday. Its fantastic, and I wish I'd have started reading it sooner so I wouldn't have to pay fines. Back on to the movie. Kristen Stewart as Bella and Robert Pattinson as Edward. It'd better be good to. It would be a pity to use such an attracive boy and a lovely looking girl and a wounderful book and make a shit for nothing movie.
They've got a decient start so far. I am a bit worried about the pace and the fact that the writer's strike isn't over. I want it to be filmed in Forks. I've still got to get up there. I don't know if they'll be able to film here in the US if it's a Cadanain movie. Not sure...so I'll have to wait till they start filming. Hopefuly soon. I want to see it and I want it to be good.

No new news for Uglies. No cast no director. But their is a pair of producers. John Davis and Jordan Davis. I've seen none of Jordan's work and as for John's
-Eragon
-Daddy Day Care
+Paycheck
+iRobot
+AVP
So over all? thought on it? I've got none but I hope they don't fuck it up like they did with Eragon. Not like it was any worse then the book. Piece of shit book. Not like its all that suprising that it was published. If I could self publish my piece of crap novelette I would be published long ago. And according to my mom I could be published. But I don't want her sticking her hand in my stuff. And my cerative side is none of her damn buisness.
Lee

xx_ never sneak out with out keys

or be smart and never sneak out at all.
So i went out my window to buy a pack of marbolos and i got them, first try. but when I tried to come back inside, my fucking window wouldn't open. i tried all the other windows. but they wouldn't open. I'm sure I could have walked right back in the front door if I would have had my damn keys. but oh no. I didn't think I'd need them. I'm to good at what I do to need keys.
But I was wrong. After smoking two ciggaretts in the hopes of calming my nerves and trying my window again and again, I caved and woke up my mom.
Scarred her shitless.
Point in case being, be smat and have a back up plan no matter what you're doing. or how many times you've done it.
Lee

xx_the clost door

Blah. me thinking more about who I'll be coming out to and when. shit like: Here have a gift. I'm bi. keeps crossing my brain. that might be the easiest but I don't think I'm going to have it happen like that. I don't even know what everyone thinks about LGBT so I guess I'll start testing the waters. If it weren't for the shit with daddy he'd now first thing. Big hug the ever so classic "So how are you?"
"Oh I'm great dad. And while we're on the subject of me, I like girls and boys. What'd you think? Oh and by the way I smoke."
And then we'd have coffee and greasy fries in downtown Medford (haha Medford, downtown, psh) and he'd be cool. I know he would because he's said he'll always love me no matter what. The smoking thing might piss him off a bit but he'd get over that. Ad he'd be pretchy but all I'd have to say is fuck off and he would.
But the rest of them. Oh no. Not so simple. I know they love me but other than a few nice dinners with grandma and love of books, I have almost squat in commen with my cousins. And my aunt and uncle are, well, just different than me. Not in a bad way. But I'm not ready to be out with them yet. I know I should be, because its a part of me, but I'm not.
As for the friends. Shit on that. No way I'd tell the Friday girls. The Walens and Jordan, yes. But if I do tell one person they'll all find out. Wel I'll just do that. If I see Tosha I'll just
tell her when she asks how Portland is. Or Seirna. but not Jaz. Not face to face. No way to Rox or Aleena. Don't think they'd get it.
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Lee

xx_seson four

Spoiler warner:
This post contains slight spoilers for season four of Battlestar Galatica season four. If you don't want to be spoiled, Frak Off.

Alrighty, with that out of the way. here we go. So I don't know much read: anything really about season four.

He That Believeth in Me: (episode one)
Jesus said unto her, "I am the resurrection, and the life: he that believeth in me, though he were dead, yet shall he live. And whosoever liveth and believeth in me shall never die. Believest thou this?" ( John 11:25-26 KJ Bible)
If that is where this is came from, I'm thinking it might have alot to do with Kara. Not that we all didn't expect that.

Six of One: (episode two)
I think this might be where the new Six might be showing up. Something along the lines of Six Degrees of seperation. Minus all the crap about Gaius being a traitor. Everyone knows that now.

Ties That Bind: (episode three)
Now if it where to be Tighs That Bind I'd say Saul and the final five. I'm still hoping that the Five will be in this and the last two episodes. Loads of sipping and friendship is hoped for this one. Appertly Laura is alive in this one. Woohoo. She's got three down so far. I know she dies I just don't know when.

Escape Velocity: (episode four)
This is gunna be a good one. I can feel it deep down. And thats mostly because I know they'll all be good. For those of us who know shit about real science and rather stick to fiction, Escape Velocity is how fast something needs to go to break from it's gravity. So are they finding Earth? Or is this more mental the phyisical?

xx_ (episode five)
Well I've got nothing for this one. No name, added no cast, so I'm thinking that it'll be a central cast epi.

Faith: (episode six)
Roslin get a friend in sick bay. Fellow cancer ridden woman named Emily Kowlski. Not a trekky so I've no idea who the actress is. Hoping Laura lives this episode out. I want her to see Earth, and it's to early to have them show up just yet.

xx_ (episode seven)
Blah here. got squat.

Sine Qua Non: (episode eight)
For those of us who don't study dead langues it means Without Which It Could Not Be in Latin. Having a feelling we'll be back to Romo Lampkin. Theres a scene with Bill and Saul. So he's still around. Hope he spills all.
And Jake is back!!!! I was wondering what they did to the poor thing. Maybe he's the mayor of Dogsvile.

xx_ (episode nine)
I do hope it has Romo in it. True I'm not a huge fan but it'd be good to see a cat again. Hope he gives it away.

Revelations: (episode ten)
After reading the title for this, I had a feeling that I was right about Sine Qua Non. I do think that someone is going to find out about the four we know about. But if we're lucky we'll get the Final Cylon. (come on Dee or Kara. Please.)
Romo is in this one. So I think I might be right about epi eight

xx_ (episode eleven)
ACK! So Katee, our lovely Oregon girl who plays the kick ass Kara Thrace (or Anders if you'd like) says that this could be the Series Finale if need be. [link]
Leoben//Kara scenes in a Forest.

What else we know:
At the moment 13 episodes are wrapped [link] but the names are not yet out.
Anders in coming back for more of the season. [link] Sucks about the car but at least they're not filming. Look on the bright side.

Thats it for now kids. I'm tired.
Lee

xx_all of this has happened before

Having just watched (most) of the last half of season three of Battlestar made me think about what's gong to happen next. And seeing as Harry is over, its the only decent thing to wonder about.


BY THE WAY: BLOGGER IS PISSING ME OFF!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


Season Four Trailers


Arg. Saw these two (yes, there different) while I was watching Tin Man (witch was pretty good) and wanted to bang my head against the wall.
So lets go face by face and dissect what they say:
Caprica Six: She's the beginning of both trailers.
I was instrumental in the distrction of humanity
So what does this say? Well that Caprica will be back for this season. Nothing new there.
Gaius Baltar: He's next in both.
I have failed so many people.
Well thats not saying much either. Of corse he's let people down. He caused the geniside and then surendered on New Caprica. So yeah, thats a bit of a let down.
Saul Tigh: First Only
I am an officer, and if I die today, that's the man I'll be.
So is he still not letting himself be a Cylon, as we saw in Crossroads part II. So that'll be interesting. And if you've seen the other trailer (I'll take that one apart later) he holds a gun to Bill's head. WTF? He'll be good to watch.
Lee Adama: Second Only
We make our own laws now, our own justice.
hmmm...Where have I hear Lee say this before? Oh right, in Crossroads. Maybe he can't say anything else with out reviling something. Or maybe he's just gotten more and more boring.
Laura Roslin: First
I am not going to trust her with the fate of this fleet. Damn it. What is going on?
Laura Roslin: Second
I am going to be slipping away from this life. (light?)
Yes we know that. Laura has cancer, again. So does this mean that she is the dieing leader again? That would explain the above comment about Kara.
Kara Thrace: Both
Shoot me. I'm not afraid to die.
RDM, you suck. thats all I have to say. Well no thats not all. The shoot me part might explain why the hell Laura has a gun in the long trailer. But would she shoot Kara? I hope not.
William Adama: Both
No one's asking anyone to forget, but we have to look to the future.
here I am look foward to MARCH! (ps. SciFi, I hate you.) So William Adama tells us shit for whats going on next season.

I just saw this one about RAZOR:


So what does it say to us? More disscition shall we?
Kara Thrace will lead the Human Race to it's end. What end? Death? Earth? Tell me damn you. And why yes Ron. It has made me think about season four in a whole new light. So much for the happy little get together I was picturing between the Adamas and Kara.
And he says 'disaster' not end. So is that what is going to happen or what we're suppost to think is going to happen?
As for what Kara is. Alive, Dead, Ghost, Cylon? I'm leaning towards Alive with a hint of Cylon thrown in. Supprised at what [we] learn about Kara Thrace. Damn, I thought I knew. So what is so shocking? Is she pregnet, or a Cylon, or the result of a one night stand? (If its the last, I hope she's Saul's. ) Oh yes, Kara Thrace and her Speical Distany. woohoo.
OK Jamie, spill. Where the hell are they going at the begining of the season? And what is their plan that the opening keeps telling us about. I think their wingen it anymore. No more plan, just playing it by ear.
The boundries will become further blurred Cylon and Human. Frakken great. Will them be doing things together? Will they be acting more like each other.
Another six? Called Natalie. Shit. They sure like to add random sixes in everywhere. Why not use Leobens, or Simons. Their barly ever in the show. But what is it that Natalie is going to do that Caprica, or head six, or any other of the random sixes that have been in the show can't?
And will Gaius and Head Six be having sex anytime soon? Those where always fun.
Are we evoloving together? The Humans and the Cylons? And then do we find Earth Together? And will be still be fighting each other? I just find it all fasinating. Me too. I want the anwsers to all the same questions.
The final Cylon will probibly be reviled in season four. It'd better. My vote is on Kara or Dee. I don't think that any human could refuse Billy.

Long Season Four trailer:

So lets sum it up here.
Bill Adama does not believe in mericails.
Caprica Six can feel that the five are close.
Gaius needs a Ray of Hope.
And then Laura fires a gun. And says something about a Cylon Trick.
Kara gets to hug Lee (shipper=happy)
Bill yells at Saul.
Saul grabs a gun and aims it at Bill.
Galen says that people who believe that Gauis is some kind of healer, are Nut Cases.
Laura want to know how [you] got here. I'm thinking she's talking to Kara.
Kara wants to know Why [you] can't trust her.
Tori looks...clean?
Sam looks at a raider with a look like "OMG!"
Bill snarls and shakes Kara.
Kara saw Earth.
Galen looks pensive.
Sam tells Kara that she is a Cylon and she's been one from the begining.
Kara looks a bit stresed about that.
Six thinks that something extrodinary has happened. But what is it?
A six blows something up.
Cavil wants to know what [you]'ve done.
Kara wants everyone to know that their going the wrong way.

And we love her for it. Just whta we need for you Kara, the religous card and extra angst.

Lee

xx_crush

So I was think of the fact that my mom said that I never like guys over the lovely age of thirty (ick.) Of course she doesn't know that people is a bit more accurate. But the thirty thing, well, she does has a bit of point there. So who do I have a crush one?

Avril Lavigne (23)
Yup. I have a slightly large crush on her. not so much the S8er Boi image but she's looking fine now. Not to mention I could listen to her music all day.

Jake Gyllenhaal (26)

What can I say? Total stud? Simply amazing? Doesn't do him justice. Loved him in Brokeback Mountain. And true that Day After Tomorrow was total crap I'll forgive him.

Katee Sackhoff (26)
Not only is she a fantastic actress, who picks amazing roles, but she is drop dead gorgeous. And as and added bonus: Oregon Girl. Oh snap bitch.

Eric Szmanda (32)
Love him. I could watch him every week. Oh wait I do. His so pretty.Plus he's friends with Marylin Manson. *glomp* Reason this is not crush not lust, he is amazing.

Giada De Laurentiis (37)
She might be a bit old for me, 22 years my senior. But she's so damn pretty. And I've been a good little kid and fallowed her resipies from Everyday Italian and they're fantastic.

John Mayer (30)
Guitar God. Perfect Voice. And he's amazingly beautiful too. What else can you say about John Mayer? Did I say I adore him? Yup that sums it .

Dita Von Teese (35)
What can you say about Dita? She is the sexiest girl on here. I might even go as far as saying that she is one of the sexiest women alive, because she might.

Aaron Douglas (36)
Witty and Ha Ha Hilarius. And he's so cute. He's not a Ken Doll, and He's not a stick boy. Love that. I'm sick of Kens and Sticks. And massive *GOLMP* for taking a part with like one line. And now he's a main character. love love love him!

Zooey Deschanel (27)

She is amazing. She's the kind of girl that you could see walking down the street. Normal, yes. Stunning, you bet your ass.

Dominic Monaghan(30)
He had a leg up with this one. He was Merry after all. But he did amazingly well with Charlie on LOST. He's the Hobbit Rockstar that everyone should be in love with.



Thats all the hotties I can stand at the moment.
Lee

xx_going out

No not out of the closet yet. Not that I think I will be anytime soon to dear old mom and dad. Or too most of the fam.
No I went out today. And I went to SMYRC. And I'll be back soon bitches. I got home I wanted something sweet other than the bowl of icecream and frozen gogurt. So I opted for a fortune cookie. and it said something like "New friendships will bring fruit." I'll have to check the kitchen it see what it said for real, but it was rad.
So it was pretty chill at SMYRC. I liked the persons there and don't think I was loud enough to make an impression on any of them. And I wasn't there long enough. Had to go get the kids. That turned out for crap. Could have stayed another 15-30 mins. total shit. Oh well better that than have to pay a dollar a minute if I was late. bleh.
And I was thinking of things on the way home and today at all. I do like thinking you know. And I was thinking about why guys hit on me. I mean I could shave all my hair off, but that just isn't me. So then I stated thinking about the whole butch//femme thing, and stereotypes in general and how I've never been one. And if I had, I was suppressing other parts of myself to be that.
And it's total crap. According to popular stereotypes I:

Can't Dance. White girl
Am a two timing slut. Bi Girl
Am a hippy farm girl who lives on a comune and smokes too much pot. Oregon Girl
Too stupid to stay in school. Homeschooled
Am a Freaky Animal Lover. Vegetarian
Can't seemed to keep my pants zipped. I walk around with two little kids almost all the time...figure that one

Whatever with those. I'm sick of bull shit like that. I guess I'll get over it. But still makes me mad.
Lee

xx_siriusly black

As we might as well get right down to it I'm a Sirius fan. And there is no way your talking me out of it. I'm sitting here watching Prisoner of Azkaban. And seeing the *nudge nudge* Brotherly embrase *wink wink* made me think of this lovely comic:


by sadwonderland

Now see I love Gary Oldman. I really do but come on ya'll. Michael Gambon looks hotter in that movie. And thats just bad. Why make such a handsome man look like a walking freak show? Ugh. At least her gets better in Order of the Phoenix. But thats not saying much because he dies. Can't say the same for Goblet of Fire he gets to have his lovely face be a pile of coals.

Got to go. Tin Man is on.
Lee

xx_max poetry

Sat 7:32
Why is it that if I have my whole life ahead of me
Does it fell like it’s ended alredy?
I don’t understand it. it’s bullshit.
I’m young.
I’m reitvely attraive.
So then why is it that I can’t seem to do anything with my life.
I mean I’m a hard worker.
And yet I’m passed by people without a second glance.
No one seems to think that I have anything to offer.
I am a good girl with her heart in the right place.

So why is it that people don’t care to look back?
Am I all that naracisstic that I think people should care?
Am I that vain?
Do I think more of myself than I should?
If I do does that make me human?

And if I am only human in the end
Is that so wrong?
We are all just that
Human.
We all need love.

So why is it that I am not aloud?
I can’t be loved.
Or so it seems.
Maybe in the end I can’t love back.

xx_the end.

it's over. no more writing. no more write ins.
i have this weekend to bask. the it's back to school. suck. i don't want my mom the hard ass on me all the time.
but she will be so i guess i'll just have to live with that.
I want a smoke. Maybe I'll get her to go to bed early
Lee